InsaneJournal

So.

I think the reason my interest jumps so often is that I'm never fully immersed in the culture of anything that I do. I mean, look at it. Religion. Writing. Dance. Music. Website design (not so much this one) Exercise. Sewing and crafts. Feminism. Art. And lots more. I get an idea for a project or activity, or to a lesser extent, career or job, and it is totally IN MY HEAD. 24/7. I can't stop dwelling on the idea I have.

And then, it flies out. Replaced with another new idea, which I proceed to obsess over. Until this idea is replaced as well.

I am a witch, and I suppose in a religious aspect I would consider myself pagan or (gulp) maybe even borderline wiccan. I've been reading for many, many years. But when it comes to actual practice? I do a few spells here and there, whip up some potions and herbal remedies, recognize the holidays and say a little prayer for each of them. But I don't actually practice, and witchcraft is very hands on. I get on a kick when I start talking to someone who's also a witch, but aside from that, its passing. Not my belief or my interest, just my practical application. (This is part of the reason I was so excited when Jess opened her harvest celebrations to people, and why I've been looking for a circle or group.)

Its the same with anything else, too. I know about things, have interest in them, but no practical application. I'm not immersed in any culture or sub-culture where I can cultivate new ideas. So I'm stuck with my same ideas and getting nowhere, fast. Sometimes I even feel less intelligent because of it! (It doesn't help that my roommates only talk about gaming, so there isn't much intelligent conversation going on there either)

I'm glad I'm going to this gay club. I want to make a point to talk to people, make some new friends. Immerse myself. Who knows? I might learn something.





crossposted to LJ